When is someone enough?

YOU ARE ENOUGH!

Plain and simple. 

You. 
Are. 
Enough.

However, before we get on to why YOU are ENOUGH and YOU are important let's fill you in a little on how I get to the point of self destruction by thinking I am not enough.

From pre-school to the 2nd grade I went to Pathfinder Christian School in Visalia, CA. This is where I learned the values and morals I still hold true to today. I am not saying I am a perfect child of God, I have my faults, I have my moments of weakness, and I have sinned, repeatedly. 

I always beat myself up when I do something wrong or disappoint someone. It's always been there. Even when they accept my apology and aren't even mad anymore I am still graveling at their feet, because I don't like hurting people. 

These last few weeks I have had many trials in my life which makes me look at myself and think "who are you, Ali? and "what do you want to do with this life that God has given you?"

Honestly, right now. I have few answers.
(In no particular order, except for the first one)
I know that...
I love God.
I love dogs.
I love to love people.
I love water.
I love making people laugh.
I love singing.
I love being friendly to strangers.
I love my family.
I love wearing t shirts and no make-up.
But, then I love getting fancy.
I don't like sleeping under the covers, I prefer a blanket.
I am definitely afraid of spiders.
I find complete joy in falling asleep on someone's chest that I truly love.
I love sentimental gifts and keeping things that remind me of my experiences.
I find truth in love songs and tie them to certain people I have met in my life.

I only had about three things on this list a few days ago... 

I honestly couldn't tell you who I was...

I have gotten myself so wrapped up in what other people expect of me and what they think of me, that I lost have lost myself in the process...

THIS IS NOT WHAT GOD WANTS FOR ME!

I am perfect in the eyes of the Lord. 
I am beautiful.
I am smart.
I am loving.
I am ENOUGH!

Therefore, it doesn't matter who likes my photos on Instagram or Facebook... Those do not define the woman that I am. He defines who I am. And I choose Him to lean on not only when I am in need, but I also choose Him to thank when I am blessed and life is great.

God is all I need. (Psalm 16)
He will bring me the desires of my heart. ( 2 Corinthians 1:20)
He will protect me. (Psalm 91)
He will bless me. (Genesis 12:2)
He will love me unconditionally. (Psalm 136)
He will comfort me. (Psalm 23:4-6)
He will save me. (2 Samuel 22:3)

Here, is to the new start of loving me again, and remembering that I can do all things through Him.

~ali